bonecutter

Well, after a very long hiatus, I think I am back.  Summer has been very fun but very hard on the diet.  We are socializing almost every night which usually includes good food and beer.  My exercise, which is my core, has gone to hell.  At least I have been wake boarding almost every night, which is great for my arms!  I even taught a class this summer on nutrition and weight loss and I cant even get myself motivated!  I cant bring myself to weigh right now because I know I have gained weight.  I dont want to let it “slip” back on.  I was really close to my goal.  I was easily, comfortably wearing size 4 and small clothes–they are starting to feel a little less comfortable.  I am not giving up.  I did work out 5 days this week.  I am not giving up, I am not giving up, I am not giving up.  Buddies, keep me in your thoughts and prayers, as I get back in the saddle again!!

I think I have finally done it–broken through a 6 week plateau.  The scale is finally starting to show all of my hard work.  Dont get me wrong the pounds are not just falling off, but at least the scale is starting to creep down.  No matter what I am not giving up.  I have a good 20-30 pounds to go.  Even though I no longer blog everyday like I used to (i dont really have anything to say), I still long on and this web site has been key for me.  Everyone keep pluggin’ along and stay strong!!

So I FINALLY made my first mini goal and so I moved it down a little today to 140 pounds.  I also adjusted my final goal UP 10 pounds from 120 to 130.  This was after pretty much everyone said that 30 pounds and I would look like a freak.  I just dont think my body was made to weigh 120–but we will see as I get closer.  I definitely have another 20 pounds to lose and at this rate that will bring me through til christmas!

Hey everyone!! Time for this country to wake up!!  We are killing ourselves and our children with overeating.  The subject of childhood obesity has been seriously weighing on my mind lately.  I live in the south now but I am a transplant from northern California.  I am overwelmed everyday by the amount of obesity in this country and especially our children.  We are headed for a HUGE health care crisis if we do not change.  I was watching my 6 year old sons baseball game and there is one child who could not run the bases because he was so fat, in fact another kid behind him past him by (I love little kids sports!).  I then noticed the rest of his siblings the oldest 14–all morbidly obese.  They were playing around a little then one boy had an asthma attack.  If we dont help our kids they are doomed to type II diabetes, degenerative joint disease, peripheral vascular disease, heart disease etc etc.  The ecomonic and social ramifications will be astronomical.  This is part of the reason I am taking this fitness journey, because I love my kids.  I want to be a good example for them and I want them to be healthy and live long productive lives.  We can not become complacent on this issue.

 Ok, sorry about the ranting but I had to get that out there!  I am staying focused on exercise and nutrition–the rest will come!  Time for some new pictures on my website–just have to get the courage up to take them!  Hope everyone “stays strong”

I am thankful to God for all the blessings in my life-my wonderful family, a great job, good friends and good health.  But I am thanking “sprint 8″ for my “transforming” body.  This 3 1/2 month journey has been tough, but I think I am starting to really see the results.  Sprint 8 (basically a really intense interval workout) has been key for me. I have never worked out so hard and so consistently in my whole life and I LOVE it.  I kick my own butt everyday!  I am starting to see some muscles I haven’t seen before!  Dont get me wrong I have a good 20-25 pounds to go, but I think I looked pretty smokin’ in my size 6 jeans this weekend!  A lot of people hadn’t seen me in along time and they definitely noticed.  Some people said “you’re losing weight AGAIN”  I hate that.  This is the last time.  I am determined not to gain this weight back again.  I figure in my life I have lost and gained at least 500lbs–that cant be good for you!!  I am commited to good health and fitness-screw the scale, the pounds will follow eventually.

I have been very neglectful of my blogging activities, but I have kept up the diet and exercise.  I know how important this web site is to my continued weightloss I just needed a little break from the intesity of my commitment.  Things are good and I am not giving up.  Look for my upcoming posts!! I am glad to be back!

I have been on this web site for just over 3 months now and it is so interesting to see how so many very different people go through such similar experiences.  For example the first blogs are about “starting over” or ” a new day” or “gonna do it this time”.  Then we move on to our excitement as those first pounds fall away and exercise begins, the “yeah me” phase.  Then as excitment settles down, sometimes dissapointment in oneself for cheating or not doing exercise.  Then here comes the dreaded plateau (this is my phase).  My point is there are common themes throughout and if you read enough blogs, you will find someone who is struggleing just the way you are or celebrating just as you are.  Its fantastic and I believe the reason blogging helps sustain weight loss.  Its amazing that the support and advice of a complete stranger can mean so much.  On that note, I hope everyone has a great week and achieves their goals!

P.S. after a 6 week lull I finally lost 1 whole pound!

So I just got home from patching up this poor little old lady who fell and broke her wrist.  Her skin was so thin, it tore terribly.  I hadn’t worked out today because I spent the entire day trying to clean, organize and make sense of my 6 and 8 year olds rooms.  It was torture.  I am laying down the law tomorrow.  I am not the maid!!  Anyway, since I took yesterday off, I felt I had to work out.  So here it is midnight and I just finished.  It really felt good though.  Its quiet in my house.  I was feeling grumpy and pissed that I have to be on call before I left and now its all good.  Exercise for me is like therapy.  It changes my mental state and brings me to a good place.  Anyway, I have to start thinking about going to bed since I will have an earlier start tomorrow.  Prayin’ for one pound!

yes its true–I am not going to exercise tonight for the first time in about 4 weeks.  It feels weird.  I need a rest.  I also increased my calories to 1300 today.  May be a recipe for disaster.  I dont know what else to do–trying to mix it up.  I have little hope at this point that anything will work.  Maybe I should get my thyroid checked.

Well I started this morning like I always do, weigh myself before I get in the shower, totally expecting to see the same weight that I have seen for the last 6 weeks.  But no, it says 130. OMG.  There is clearly something wrong.  Let me step on the scale again–130.  I repeat this process at least 6 times, take a shower and do it again.  Now I know that is not my weight.  I couldn’t lose 24 pounds in a day, and I know I would be damn skinny if I weighed that.  But I think– is this the breakthrough I have been waiting for?  I know I dont weigh that little but maybe the scale has finally moved.  I anxiously await my husband to get up and weigh himself.  197–what he always weighs. Then the kids.  It weighs them right too. We check the battery its all good.  I weigh again–after at least 10 times of weighing 130 I get on and I am back up where I usually am.  My heart sank and I wanted to cry. In fact, I am feeling that a lot lately, like I would like to cry.  My frustration is mounting to a point of desperation.  I am trying so hard to be strong, stay positive and keep motivated, but it is really getting to me.  I feel trapped in this body right now and want out!!  I am sure others have experienced this but right now I feel like I am the only one.  I am literally praying to God and pleading with my body to give me just a little hope.  Why is everything so hard for me?  I have given many people advise on exercise and diet and it works for them–why not me?  Anyone who knows me that I work hard at what ever I do.  I am very competitive–mostly with myself.  This diet has been no different.  I dont know where to go or what to do.