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I am thankful to God for all the blessings in my life-my wonderful family, a great job, good friends and good health.  But I am thanking “sprint 8″ for my “transforming” body.  This 3 1/2 month journey has been tough, but I think I am starting to really see the results.  Sprint 8 (basically a really intense interval workout) has been key for me. I have never worked out so hard and so consistently in my whole life and I LOVE it.  I kick my own butt everyday!  I am starting to see some muscles I haven’t seen before!  Dont get me wrong I have a good 20-25 pounds to go, but I think I looked pretty smokin’ in my size 6 jeans this weekend!  A lot of people hadn’t seen me in along time and they definitely noticed.  Some people said “you’re losing weight AGAIN”  I hate that.  This is the last time.  I am determined not to gain this weight back again.  I figure in my life I have lost and gained at least 500lbs–that cant be good for you!!  I am commited to good health and fitness-screw the scale, the pounds will follow eventually.

I have been on this web site for just over 3 months now and it is so interesting to see how so many very different people go through such similar experiences.  For example the first blogs are about “starting over” or ” a new day” or “gonna do it this time”.  Then we move on to our excitement as those first pounds fall away and exercise begins, the “yeah me” phase.  Then as excitment settles down, sometimes dissapointment in oneself for cheating or not doing exercise.  Then here comes the dreaded plateau (this is my phase).  My point is there are common themes throughout and if you read enough blogs, you will find someone who is struggleing just the way you are or celebrating just as you are.  Its fantastic and I believe the reason blogging helps sustain weight loss.  Its amazing that the support and advice of a complete stranger can mean so much.  On that note, I hope everyone has a great week and achieves their goals!

P.S. after a 6 week lull I finally lost 1 whole pound!

yes its true–I am not going to exercise tonight for the first time in about 4 weeks.  It feels weird.  I need a rest.  I also increased my calories to 1300 today.  May be a recipe for disaster.  I dont know what else to do–trying to mix it up.  I have little hope at this point that anything will work.  Maybe I should get my thyroid checked.

April fools!!  Anyone who knows me, also knows that I haven’t lost 7 lbs in the last month.  My goal when I started this venture was to “redefine” my body.  I have been faithful with blood, sweat and tears and I am just not seeing results.  What is really frustrating is that I dont know what I am doing wrong and no one can really tell me.  I wish we had a little internal computer that gave us a print out like..”too many calories” or “watch the sodium” or “you need more protein”.  That would be awesome!!  I am jealous of people who add a little walking to their exercise and drop the lbs!

Met with a trainer today and it felt pretty good.  I am really going to try to incorporate more weight training but don’t want to give up my cardio which I am doing 7 days a week.  I also took over the role as team physician for the local college.  High school is one thing but those college football players are huge!!  I am a little intimidated but I am sure I will get over that.  I am only 5′3″ so i look like a midget next to them.  I am excited about it and look forward to football season.  Every Friday night a high school game, every saturday-college.  For any of you living in the south you know how HUGE football is here. I cant wait!!

For any biggest loser fans, just watched jay take one for the team.  God I am so sick of seeing those dudes crying.  I really do understand how emotional the whole thing is but its getting old with them.  I am glad one is gone.  Ali is amazing to me.  When she came back she weighed more than me and in a few short weeks–blew right past me.  She looks great.  I need a home Jillian!!

Good luck everyone–summer is coming

Ok so thanks to all of you who read my pathetic blog yesterday and provided words of encouragement.  Everyone has bad days like that I guess.  I felt a whole lot better today.  My workouts are still kickin’ and I am meeting with a trainer on tuesday to incorporate more weight training.  I really hope this helps me drop some pounds finally.  I am wearing clothes that I  haven’t worn in a long time and that feels good.  I definitely look better with my clothes on–not so good in bathing suit or birthday suit yet.  I still have a fantasy in my head of what I want to be.  Not skinny but thin and ripped!!  I have noticed more wrinkles in my face since I have lost weight.  I always joked about that before, but now it is happening.  has anyone else noticed that?

Anyway, on to a new week.  I will not lose focus.  I need some positive feedback on the scale this week!! PLEEAASSE

Lately I have been feeling that no matter what I do I will always be fat.  I have been trying so hard and have seen very little and slow results.  I am really trying to do it right this time and it is so slow.  It makes me want to do some fad diet just to see SOME results.  I dont know what to do, I am so sad.

Today I went to the tanning beds–something I hate and generally dont advocate but I am going to the beach soon and dont want to get scourched ( I was only in there 6 mins).  Anyway, as I was getting undressed in front of the full length mirror(yikes!!), I realized just how far I have to go.  When I think about it I want to cry.  My inner thighs are completely cellulite, I have a spare tire and totally flabby triceps. Now this is after 3 months of intense workout.  I feel that I must have the most resistant body to weight loss ever!

“Fat” is sometimes a relative concept.  I mean, people will tell me I look good blah, blah, blah. but I am still fat.  I may not be as fat as I used to be or as fat as they are, but I am still fat.   I am so tired of feeling this way.  My goal this time was to transform my body in a way it has never been before, by hard work with no short cuts.  It just doesn’t seem to be working.

Of course I am not giving up.  I will push on.  I just have to get these feelings out.  Thanks to everyone for your support.   Sorry I am a downer today.

My 2 week absence from this web site has been really hard and now I am having a hard time getting motivated again.  This is so important to my success but I have worked late every night since I have been back from my vacation.  Exercise is going well as is diet.  Blogging will come again.

I had my fitness really put to the test last week.  Many of you may know what an exercise freak I am and I thought i was in good shape until I started skiing black diamonds with my husband at 12,000 feet.  i thought my lungs would explode.  I really felt like I had burned plenty of calories during the day but still managed to get a couple of gym work outs in.  When we visited NJ for easter I even bought a one week pass so i could continue my workout.  I kind of pigged out over easter weekend and I even drank beer!  Man it tasted good. No more though–back to the grind.  I am going to hold off on weighing myself, I dont think I could handle the dissapointment if I have gained weight

Bob on biggest loser stated that they give a free day to the contestants once a week to eat whatever they want but maintain their exercise.  That is terrifying to me.  I cant even lose a pound without cheating, I am afraid I will gain 5.  This whole concept of eating more to lose more, I understand, but I cant seem to get over the idea that the concept will probably not work for me.  I looked at my cals for the last two days and I am right around 800-900.  OMG I am like 1800 calorie deficit and no weight loss.  I wish I could trust my body to eat more and lose the pounds.  Does anyone else feel this way?

Yes believe it or not I am afraid of my upcoming vacation.  We are taking our kids for spring break skiing in Vail and then to NJ to visit my husbands family and I am terrified I am going to blow all of my hard work.  Anyone who is my buddy or follows my blog knows how hard I work on diet and exercise–and I haven’t lost a #@*% in’ pound in 4 weeks.  What is going to happen when I am away from my comfort zone and my elliptical?  At least I will get exercise skiing but I am definitely worried about the food and drink.  I haven’t had any alcohol in 6 weeks!  I would love a glass of red wine after a long day of skiing but I know how crappy my metabolism is and I will probably gain 5 lbs.  One thing that is good is I think I am in pretty good cardio shape so I wont be suckin’ wind so bad on the mountain!!  Gonna try to stay focused and eat healthy!!

someone please tell me!  I am not losing the pounds on the scale–for like 4 weeks I have hoovered around the same weight.  I exercise hard everyday, and I dont cheat. no gimmick dieting just eating healthy.  In fact its probably the healthiest I have eaten in my entire life.  I am so frustrated, I dont know what to do.  I keep thinking this is the week I will break through.  I have only been doing this about 6 weeks–plateau already?  I dont know, I want to cry.